At peace

Alayah's dad has pretty much disappeared. He left the state and his phone is disconnected. His other daughters birthday was the other day and he didn't call to wish her happy birthday. At first I was really upset by the fact her didn't call his daughter because it showed that he doesn't care. Now I've decided that maybe that is the best. He probably won't call for Alayah's birthday and even if he does there is no guarantee that he will call every year on her birthday.
She will never have consistency with him. She will never be able to fully count on him because he cannot put anyone but himself first. A part of me feels hopeful that he will just stay invisible. A distant memory. If he isn't around at all maybe it will be for the best.
I don't know if that is what is best, but if that is what happens I am at peace with that. The last month I have stressed about him disappearing a lot. I didn't want him to do that to her. I wanted him to share in the joys of our child. I was not at peace.
All of a sudden today I just felt calm abnd peaceful about the whole situation. I don't know what the future holds, but I am grateful I am at peace for now. The things us parents go through for our kids.