Birthday Party

Today we went to a birthday party for Alayah's best friend Danielle. It was a little hard for me because I pretty much had to deal with Amarah the whole time, so I missed out on doing the activities with Alayah. She didn't seem to notice or care, but I did and it made me sad. I really hope I can get this balancing act figured out. The girls looked really cute in their dresses for the party. How has it been 5 days already. I want time to slow down.

Two sleepy girls

I love having two girls in my bed now. It seems like this is the way it should have always been. Although there isn't much room for me anymore lol. I am trying to get Amarah to sleep in her bassinet, but so far I am not having any luck. She is just like Alayah in the fact that she sleeps best in my arms or at least touching me in some form. 

Sunshine

I forgot how sore I could be after giving birth. I hurt so much I just want to lay in bed and not move. I took Amarah to the doctor today and she weighed 6lbs 12 oz. She left the hospital at 6lbs 4oz. It is good to know that she is getting enough to eat. 

We went to the Rio buffet to eat tonight and it was rough on me to stand in line for over an hour. My body hurts so bad. The doctor said she was a little yellow so she spent some time hanging out in the sun today.

First wash down

So glad to be spending our first day at home. I gave Amarah her first sponge bath. She didn't like it so much, but she smells so good now. Her little feet have so much dry skin on them. I can't wait until she gets all her smooth baby soft skin. She still has her arm and foot band on and I don't want to take them off yet lol. 

An Alayah quote " Mom I think her foot is growing. Look how big my foot is too. That means you need to have another baby!" Hah...this girl is funny

Home

We finally got released from the hospital around 6pm. I was so ready to get out of there. My body hurts and  I am so tired. 

Amarah pretty much spent the day attached to my breast. Every time a nurse came in to see how she was doing she was eating. All the hair bows and hats I brought are way to big on her little head, so I guess she won't be wearing home any fancy attire. 

She looks so tiny in her car seat. Alayah will be excited to have me home and I will be glad to be in my own bed and have access to both my girls. Alayah got to spend the day with Nana since she flew in last night. Alayah is still getting used to her new sister. She wants to hold her, but gets a little nervous once she is holding her. I can't wait to see these two grow together. 

Just the two of Us

Tonight is our last night being just the two of us. Tomorrow night at 8pm I will head to the hospital to be induced. Knowing when my life will change makes it much harder than going into labor on my own. I am sad to lose what I've had the last 4 years. Alayah and I have been two peas in a pod and each others best pals. We snuggle every night and have great fun together. I am scared for that to change and sad at the same time. I am excited to add another member to our family, but I am scared of the future. I am scared of how I am going to manage two little girls and how I am going to make sure that Alayah doesn't feel left out or replaced. I hope she embraces being a big sister and loves all that comes with it. I hope that I can be the mom both girls need. Life is changing for us in the blink of an eye and I just pray that God is with us the whole way and can bring me peace in all my worries.